Konkon.Me.Cancan

My best shot among all... taken at Bali beach ^.^

-konkon-

I like photo shooting. Every picture can tell the audience the story behind. It's vary depending of the person who took the shot. My first camera is nikon coolpix, and i named it konkon :) Many places i brought konkon with me, thousands of photos i had taken. Konkon is very helpful and its 'eye' is so sharp.

I can take panorama too!

-konkon-

Time past. Konkon getting older, some function is stucked and its battery cover is spoilt :(

I think i have burdened konkon for 3 years. So i decided to get a new member to company konkon. I bought a Cancan 2 months back.

you are not alone, konkon!

-cancan-

Although both of them are not from the same family, but i do cherish each of them... We are family!

我不是我? I'm not me?

我来古晋大概有三个多月了。当初，我是带着很期待但很害怕，甚至与好奇的心情踏上这块“我从没来过土地”。那时的我，只想离开我的家乡，却没想过要去那里，反正离开就对了。很多朋友听了我的决定，大家都感到很好奇，为什么我会选择到一个既陌生又比较落后的地方，为什么不是邻国-新加坡。我想大概我已经厌倦了生活在繁忙的地方，想要追求新鲜感吧。其实我是在逃避。我想一个人生活，抛开以前不开心的一切，给自己一个重生的机会。直到现在，我还是很佩服当时的勇气。

最近，我发现我变了。我变得很悲观，不说话，每天唉声叹气。我想我一定使得了忧郁症。“哈哈，没酱严重吧” -朋友说。是的，当一个人长期间处于独自一个人的状态，会渐渐的收藏自己，慢慢地变得自卑。说话时都会打结起来。因为工作关系，我一个人呆在这寂寞的城市生活。连照镜子，我都觉得自己很陌生，似曾相识，却说不出什么。很悲哀吧？

我只是可以说，我没后悔当初选择来这里打工。我还需要多一点耐心和努力。

我想，是时候改变自己了...
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I've been at Kuching for 3 months. At that time, I was scared, awaited and even curious to reach this "land i never ever been before". For me, I just wish to leave my hometown, anywhere will be, I don't care. Many of my friends felt very curious of my decision to come over here, asking why I would rather choose a unfamiliar and underdeveloped place whereas i'm staying at KL, why not Singapore? May be I already fed up with the busy city where I've stay since Im born and im looking for something new and fresh. In fact, I wanna escape from the current of me. I wanna live alone, forget about all the sad experiences, and give myself a chance to reborn. Till now, i still feel proud with my courage.

Recently, i realised i've changed. I becoming very pessimistic, less talking, sighing everyday. I think i must be sick, being heavyhearted, depressed. My friend didn't believe me. Yup, a person will become inferior, keep everything to oneself while he being alone for too long. Eventually, you find yourself difficulty in talking. i've been staying alone at this quiet city for quite some time because of my job. Looking into the mirror, I'm a stranger to myself, looks familiar, but speechless. Isn't it so pathetic?

What I can say is... I feel not regret for my decision to come over here. I still need more time and patience.

I think... It's time for me to change...

献给伦的祝福

还记得我小六时是个班长，就读启智华小6I班，班级任是很严格的郑辉荣老师。小六的同窗都大概记得（因为我时常抄命，执行任务嘛），班上最文静的男生也没几个...最文静的就包括小伦了。小六过后，我们都进读了同一间中学。在我印象中，高中一时我只认识小伦。当时的我对男同学都很凶，时常动手动脚。阿伦就是其中一个被我狠打的男同学（请注意：狠打是指手臂部位）。因为学术的问题，没多久我们被派到不同的班。有一段日子都没讲话了... 就在近年来，我们联络回了，特别感到有亲切感，毕竟相识多年了。

猜猜我在那里? 哈哈...我是班长嘛！

阿伦就是头发梳得最帅的男生咯！从上第二排，左边数第三个男生...

10月29日2007年就是阿伦的人生大事的一天。从他相恋7年的女朋友注册那一天，我就很替他高兴。他是一个很体贴的朋友，有点小聪明，很精打细算的一个人。当天，我们大伙儿都预先请了假帮忙。而女孩就顺理成章的当了女家的姐妹，要刁难兄弟帮一下。一些都进行的很顺利，而且很开心。晚上的喜宴都玩得很尽兴，大家都喝的醉醉的。不过大家的心里都为这两位新人祈祷着。

两个人啊，能在这个世界上碰见，相惜相爱，是一种缘分。可遇不可求，当你遇见了就要把握，如果你还没遇到只是缘分还没来。人都是不会满足的，常常会埋怨为什么不会得到比目前好点的。应该要学会知足，惜缘，这样生活也会过得比较开心了, 不是吗！


p.s: 伦，你一定要幸福噢！祝福你！恭喜恭喜！

纳闷

24/5/07 - 1:55am

最近我从我的一位小学同窗认识了一伙他的朋友。我很容易就融入了这一伙人，所以我们全部都归类成“结友”。刚离开大学生涯的我，很沉重，很空虚。但亏我一直以来都交友广阔。哈！所以还不赖。闷了，可以直接叫朋友出来喝茶，得空还可以找找朋友吃饭。但是，我真的有点开始累了。很想有个依靠。再加上现在的我还没有工作，自然很空闲。毫无目标地等时间过，好浪费时间哦！或许可以换个角度较享受吧。姻缘啊，可愈不可求。很天真的想遇到理想的白马王子，这种想法就快要消失了。有时候想象的很难与现实的相同。爱情和面包不能相提并论， 反而一定要有面包才有爱情。长大了，顾虑多了，再不是以前想象的童话故事。都是填饱肚子再说吧！哈哈，多无奈啊。人生不应该是盲目的徘徊着，我应该要醒了，沉睡太久了。醒来吧！开始你另一阶段的梦想追逐！现在才是人生发挥的开始，祝福你！

Two Wolves

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.

He said, "My son, the battle is between 2 'wolves' inside us all.

One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.

The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: "Which wolf wins?"

The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

TargetLess

Phew...already finished my oral presentation for thesis yesterday. Didin't really feel that i had being through that, hardly feel the difference of before and after. The feeling was a satisfaction in achieving your task. I enjoy the session a lots.

The way of university life has finally come to the end. It's excited. But, there's worries and fears inside me - the path that i'm choosing for my future. Targetless, exhausted, mentally tired for anything. The first-three years job for a fresh graduate is essential to expand in the coming years. It's so misty for me right now. "What am I really want in life?"

See you at the top!

It's been long time i didn add any new post. All this while, i was busy with my final year project. i'll graduate soon. Ya...leaving almost 19 years of my study life, join into the reality world-work! It's a new beginning of the other path of my life...

Hmm...my feeling is damn complicated now. Mixed feeling... I'm very excited to start my new path, can't wait to have achievement of my career. However, i lack of courage. I'm afraid of the world outside. Will i have what I want? Or I got nothing after spending years of my time? May be I'm thinking too much.

But for sure, I have a positive thinking now. A good mindset that let me understand that life is full of excitements. Knowing my strength and weaknesses, putting efforts, I believe that i'll reach the top. Cheers...