After 13 years...

Dear KY, Congratulations to you. Sorry for not attending your wedding dinner. Best blessing for you and your hubby, 'bai dou kai lou' (canto). Cheers!!

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I was invited by my ex-classmate for her wedding dinner 2 weeks ago. I disappointed her for not attending. It makes me feel bad. If i was told earlier, definitely i will be there. I believe it's will be a good chance for std 6 gathering after 13 years we lost contact.

Today i feel worst and regretted to absent at the wedding dinner. Luckily, i still manage to know the recent 'news' of my std 6 ex-classmate. Thanks to Initial for keeping me updated. Going to be mixed feeling, manage to catch up few of them through fb. Haha...

Many old memories has been digging out throughout the wedding cum gathering (although i was not there, i know ^.^). After 13 years we separated apart, we seems like going back to schooling time. Browsing back all the stories and rumours, makes me feel much appreciations. It's kinda weird the feeling. We took out the class photo of us, we all change a lots! Haha... more to prettier and more handsome :@

Class 6I, SRK Khai Chee (1995)

I manage to recall only 70% of their names. Others like we are not in same class before. Really missed those days, we gossip about each other, don't wanna friend with who, scolded and canned by our class teacher(the most strict and fierce teacher in school)...etc.

Oh..gals and guys... I miss you all a lots!! I can't wait to come back for gathering once again ^.^

Be kind to yourself

I saw this from the newspaper and i found it's useful and good to share around. It's titled "10 things to remember when your feelings have been trampled on" by the writer-Donna Fargo. Please read patiently and think!

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1. Whether it's a family member, somebody at work, or your best friend who's hurt you badly, put yourself in their shoes and treat them the way you would want to be treated, even if they don't deserve it.
   
2. If you've heard something you didn't want to hear, remember it might not be 100% true. So lighten up. If it's not urgent, put off thinking about it for a couple of days. Forgive the person who wronged you; don't forget, you're doing this for yourself, too. Prove to yourself that you can practice what you believe. Try to be as understanding of others as you would want them to be of you.


3. There will always be losers and winners. Act according to how you want to feel about yourself when all is said and done. Don't judge what others do if you don't want them to judge you.


4. Remember, what other people do is their responsibility. Don't let them cause you to carry a grudge and let their actions weigh you down. They are not responsible for your actions, no matter what they do. You are.


5. I someone has said something untrue about you or done something intentionally to hurt you, wish good things for that person - even if you don't feel like it. Ask for them what you desire for yourself, and it will draw those things to you.


6. If you've made a mistake or disappointed yourself or others, apologise quickly and earnestly, that's all you can do. Let your remorse teach you how to have compassion for others when they make mistakes. Nobody's perfect, even though we try to be. If someone can't accept your apology, that's okay, too. Just do the right thing and go on.


7. Talk less and listen more; you could learn something about others and about yourself. If you feel like yelling, go outside and throw rocks on the cement instead. Take a walk or, better yet, sing... it will put a melody back in your life.


8. If you think someone is making fun of you or someone you love, disarm them, not with your fist, but with your best smile. Give them something they don't know how to give. Speak to them; be hold. Ask that they be blessed and you'll be blessed, too. Forgiveness is a powerful thing; it will help your body and soul. Don't let anyone cause you to act they way they've acted toward you, and remember that they have a right to do whatever they choose also.


9. Don't hide your hurts and pains and feelings inside where they will harden your heart. Use common sense and understanding to process them. Don't react just from your feelings; respond with maturity rather than childish habit. You won't regret it.


10. Get in touch with the person you want to be and become that. Listen to your heart... you can find the answer there to every question you have. Remember, no matter how you're treated, just treat others the way you would want to be treated when your feelings are getting trampled on.

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At first, I feel it's kinda kind to your enemy or someone you dislike and a simple-minded thinking in this society nowadays. However, after thinking a while, it's actually Karma. It's rather you want a friends add on into your list or a enemy instead. Don't be cruel to yourself. I have been practicing this and why not you?! Be happy...

Red Alert

This is kinda cute!

I miss Choo Kit Yeng!!

Her hairstyle just look like 7-zai

(stephen chow movie)

I miss my niece alot!! Just talked over the phone with my sister at KL. After keen for long while, my niece finally know to call my sister and I - 'gu jie' (I'm her papa's sister, she's my brother's daughter). But I'm not the first one to hear that from her. I have met her during raya when I back KL for vacation. She is too shy or strange to call me that even I act funny in front of her :( I'm so sad...

she's just soo.. cute! Love ya...

Must try at Sibu

It's my first time to visit Sibu, a small city at east part of Sarawak. I heard before that Sibu has many nice food cause Foo-chow people is good in cooking. After the day time occassion, my colleagues has planned a special dinner for me. It's located at Jalan Pahlawan, everyone in Sibu knows about it and ever night is fulled of hungry fellas.

Hong Fu Seafood Restaurant

The special dish is very non-halal.

'Jar-Zhu-Shau' (Deep fried trotter)

It's crispy in outer layer and tender of its meat. It's served with a sweet and sour sauce.
Besides, Sibu is famous for seafood, and Sarawak has good spice-black pepper.

Black pepper crab

We have a nice dinner. I'm fulled and feels abit guilty. It's very oily food that i shouldn't take much. Wonder need to exercise how long to cover it. So, we decides to walk back to our hotel. At last, we took a cab :@

If you plan to come Sibu, make sure you book the hotel. If not...

The world is in square...

Since it's a raya month, my company had orgarnised a lunch for our clients at Sibu. My superior brought me there to help out. Besides, i will have a chance to witness for the what i have done in work all the while applies here. I'm so happy though it's only a short visit.

The lunch was great. Of cause i have a tour in my client's office. They are implementing a 5S policy. Everything is so so organise. What capture my eyes is this...And this...

Funny hor?! And this...It's called 'pasu bunga', can you hear me?

Every object is labelled and placed in a square box. Means you can not move it out of the box. Don't ever think about it! My superior told me that even some higher management staff applies this on their table. Imagine you got a working desk. Everything on the table (stationeries, calculator, document tray, calendar, etc) are put in boxes tapped by colour tape. You will need to put back in place after using it. Wah... tensionnya... However, i didn't have a chance to enter the person's room that day.

I can't deny it's a good system that you labelled and placed all in a desired box, but not for anything. It's very convenient for spare parts rack or safety equipements. So that, all have to put it back after use and the latter would not miss too. Especially in emergency, some people may get lost in sudden.

Now you know... the world is actually can be in square...

Konkon.Me.Cancan

My best shot among all... taken at Bali beach ^.^

-konkon-

I like photo shooting. Every picture can tell the audience the story behind. It's vary depending of the person who took the shot. My first camera is nikon coolpix, and i named it konkon :) Many places i brought konkon with me, thousands of photos i had taken. Konkon is very helpful and its 'eye' is so sharp.

I can take panorama too!

-konkon-

Time past. Konkon getting older, some function is stucked and its battery cover is spoilt :(

I think i have burdened konkon for 3 years. So i decided to get a new member to company konkon. I bought a Cancan 2 months back.

you are not alone, konkon!

-cancan-

Although both of them are not from the same family, but i do cherish each of them... We are family!

我不是我? I'm not me?

我来古晋大概有三个多月了。当初，我是带着很期待但很害怕，甚至与好奇的心情踏上这块“我从没来过土地”。那时的我，只想离开我的家乡，却没想过要去那里，反正离开就对了。很多朋友听了我的决定，大家都感到很好奇，为什么我会选择到一个既陌生又比较落后的地方，为什么不是邻国-新加坡。我想大概我已经厌倦了生活在繁忙的地方，想要追求新鲜感吧。其实我是在逃避。我想一个人生活，抛开以前不开心的一切，给自己一个重生的机会。直到现在，我还是很佩服当时的勇气。

最近，我发现我变了。我变得很悲观，不说话，每天唉声叹气。我想我一定使得了忧郁症。“哈哈，没酱严重吧” -朋友说。是的，当一个人长期间处于独自一个人的状态，会渐渐的收藏自己，慢慢地变得自卑。说话时都会打结起来。因为工作关系，我一个人呆在这寂寞的城市生活。连照镜子，我都觉得自己很陌生，似曾相识，却说不出什么。很悲哀吧？

我只是可以说，我没后悔当初选择来这里打工。我还需要多一点耐心和努力。

我想，是时候改变自己了...
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I've been at Kuching for 3 months. At that time, I was scared, awaited and even curious to reach this "land i never ever been before". For me, I just wish to leave my hometown, anywhere will be, I don't care. Many of my friends felt very curious of my decision to come over here, asking why I would rather choose a unfamiliar and underdeveloped place whereas i'm staying at KL, why not Singapore? May be I already fed up with the busy city where I've stay since Im born and im looking for something new and fresh. In fact, I wanna escape from the current of me. I wanna live alone, forget about all the sad experiences, and give myself a chance to reborn. Till now, i still feel proud with my courage.

Recently, i realised i've changed. I becoming very pessimistic, less talking, sighing everyday. I think i must be sick, being heavyhearted, depressed. My friend didn't believe me. Yup, a person will become inferior, keep everything to oneself while he being alone for too long. Eventually, you find yourself difficulty in talking. i've been staying alone at this quiet city for quite some time because of my job. Looking into the mirror, I'm a stranger to myself, looks familiar, but speechless. Isn't it so pathetic?

What I can say is... I feel not regret for my decision to come over here. I still need more time and patience.

I think... It's time for me to change...